To go or not to go... well sort of

Been in the US five years now. Had a helluva time. Learnt so much in my masters that sometimes, my head hurt. Maybe it was the cheap liquor but I am told smelling liquor does not have that effect on the head. Yet most of the learning happened while I was least expecting it. Maybe it was just the fact that I was out on my own for the first time. Maybe it was that I was finally going through the metamorphosis that people call growing up. Currently have a dream job. Well, cant be a dream if I am doing it right. So lets say, a once upon a time dream job. Feel like I have gained eveything that I had to from this country, and lost too. Feel like it is time to go back home. A feeling compunded by the fact that my parents are visiting, reminding me of all the things I have so deeply missed. Well I have always eaten everything my mom has made with a lot of love. There is more... obviously.
Once again, a man stands at crossroads (Dont call me a sexist just as yet.. I am a man after all and in a blog one talks about oneself!) There is the right thing to do, and the easy thing to do, all over again. Well, cant tell which is which really. Some day, one seems right and the other easy (and not right.. perhaps) some day, the exact opposite. The situation forces me to ask myself a question I have been avoiding for quite some time now. What do I want? Simple eh... just ask yourself and see.. it is one of the most frustratingly freakingly obnoxious questions ever!!! (paaji control.. I hear someone saying) Well the reason why this question is tough is, no points for guessing it, the answer is difficult. But what is worse, is that if you know the answer by some wierd stroke of luck, fortune, brilliance, whatever, you are now forced to act on it. Why? Well think about this, walk to a grocer in India and say "Bhaisaab aloo kitne ko diya?" and when he answers, walk away. Or go to a Quiznos and ask "What kind of breads do you have?" And when you get the answer, reply with the correct expression and say"Excellent!" and walk away. I dont know if I am making myself clear here... but the beauty of a blog is.. who the f*** cares.
So coming back to what do I want. Well to answer this open ended question is tough. At the moment, I want a good nights sleep. But to tackle it, one needs to break this question down.
1) What do I want in my career?
2) What do I want in my personal life?
3) What do I want from my spare time? (personal life and spare time are different is something I learnt here, not in the university obviously)
So there, seems simple enough. I have answers to each one. I am not going to publish them on a blog, obviously. Especially the personal life stuff is kinda R rated. But I do have these answers. But the vote seems divided. Cant make a decision inspite of picking three questions (for the statitically anal). So now what. Make more questions... Maybe. But time for bed now.